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Friday, September 2, 2011

Unnecessary Drama

When a friend called me today and asked what I was up to, I responded, "embracing unemployment."  I am "in-between" jobs—the job that just ended and a job that I trust God will provide in the coming weeks. Not having a job sounds glamourous in the "teenager: not working is fun type of way."  Not having a job sounds scary in the "recent graduate: I am trying to pay bills type of way."  And not having a job sounds uncomfortable in the "someone I just met asked what I do" type of way.

I feel as though I've created unnecessary drama for myself.  In not trusting that God will provide.  In choosing anxiety and not freedom and peace.  In allowing myself to feel stressed out whenever I use my debit card and not thanking God that I have money in my account.

Thus, I embrace.

On another note, I have observed other people creating unnecessary drama.  Like today.  I was leisurely driving home, waiting at a stop sign to turn left.  As this intersection is busy and three cars were in front of me, I chose to look at a text I had received.  Jerks seem to have impeccable timing.  Precisely one second after I picked up my phone a man in a black truck drove up next to me, a man who wanted to turn right at the stop sign.  He stopped and yelled at me.

"YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO DRIVE AND STOP TEXTING!!!!  I AM TRYING TO TURN RIGHT AND YOU ARE HALF WAY INTO MY LANE!!!"

My response?  "Chill out."

First of all, I was appropriately reading a text message.  Second of all, he did have enough room to turn right and could have done it quicker if he hadn't stopped to yell at me.  Third of all, his truck was quite large so in the case that I was too far to his side of a one lane, trying to be two lane road, I'd have to pass the blame.